LOVE :: I've been thinking of how I want to make Sweet 2016 better than this year has been for myself and my family. As I reflect on this last day of 2015, I am beyond grateful for the MANY blessings God permitted for me. I married my Love, who is a reflection of all things wonderful, beautiful, and complex. I met one of my personal inspirations, Ms. Mimi Thorisson, and was able to learn from her and bring a piece of her and her family's style back to my own home. Lastly, we purchased a beautiful new house that instantly felt like home.
With the amazing things also came a few challenges and heartbreaking moments. We recently learned that our beloved dog, my dearest child of 11 years, is dying. When I adopted her, she was 2 months old and I never thought I would fall so in love with an animal, but her big personality won me over. She's been the epitome of love, forgiveness and absolute FUN. I've learned how to be more patient, kind and forgiving because of her.
We also learned earlier this year that our chances of having a child are very marginal. It was heartbreakingly crushing to receive that news and as I type this, tears are welling up in my eyes. I can't say that I always dreamed of being a mother - I did not. Growing up, I was not very fond of children at all. I think around the age of 28, I began to feel motherly and my feelings completely changed toward wanting children. I sometimes think that my disdain for ever wanting children in my early years somehow programmed my body to also reject the notion. Who knows? Life is filled with ups, downs, disappointments and laughter and taking the good with the bad is the truth in learning and living.
As we move forward toward Sweet 2016, I've decided to choose Love as my personal theme for the year ahead. To Love my God, who loves me despite me. To Love my dog every day that she remains to be with us here on earth. To Love myself and all of my imperfections. To Love my husband. To Love my family, friends and even those that don't wish the best for me. I choose to LOVE.
Thank you 2015 for the joy, lessons and blessings ... Sweet 2016, I welcome you with loving arms.
xo, Dana